This post basically consists of straight-up rambling, which I haven't done in ages and have missed dearly! Brace yourselves.
I've been feeling a little frustrated with my blog lately. I'm just so ridiculously uninspired. I feel like a phony every time I post something because a) it's probably not the best quality b) it's too often none of my own content and c) it's so forced, I barely sound like myself. I'm pretty sure I'd be a cringing mess if I went through my posts and counted the number of times I've apologized for a lack of posts... Also, the layout makes me want to pull my hair out. Urrrgh. I finished my exams last Friday, so I've been free all week, but if I'm honest, even with all this free time, sitting on the couch watching re-runs of some ridiculous TLC programme is a bit more tempting than writing a post about fashion or pop-culture. That leads me the the second problem I've got: content.
I've been feeling a little frustrated with my blog lately. I'm just so ridiculously uninspired. I feel like a phony every time I post something because a) it's probably not the best quality b) it's too often none of my own content and c) it's so forced, I barely sound like myself. I'm pretty sure I'd be a cringing mess if I went through my posts and counted the number of times I've apologized for a lack of posts... Also, the layout makes me want to pull my hair out. Urrrgh. I finished my exams last Friday, so I've been free all week, but if I'm honest, even with all this free time, sitting on the couch watching re-runs of some ridiculous TLC programme is a bit more tempting than writing a post about fashion or pop-culture. That leads me the the second problem I've got: content.
There's obviously a stigma that comes with "fashion blogging", as when it's mentioned in conversation, it's most often met (by non-bloggers) with a look of attempted masked disapproval. I don't think it's the stigma that bothers me (I could care less tbh), but I feel like blogging solely about fashion/personal style is a little unsatisfying. So, I'm going on an indefinite hiatus to rethink this blog and what I want to write about, because I feel like I've let the blogging community and other people influence me so much that I've become a lot less me, and a lot more of trying to conform to other people's ideas of what's right and wrong in the blogosphere.
Before Oh Kenzo, I had a tumblr blog which was pretty much non-existent to others - I was basically writing for myself and for the sake of writing. I still visit and read that blog often, and even after having stopped writing there so long ago, I still feel like that blog was more "me" than anything I've written on here in a very long time. That's sad. What I've noticed is that blogging is very up and down when you're trying to figure things out - this post was partly inspired by an amazing blogger who I've just discovered and is currently going through the same thing. Apparently, it happens to us all! I love blogging, I do, but I think what I'm heading towards is a blog less focused on what is (insert adjective), and more focused on what I THINK ABOUT what is (insert adjective) - if you can make sense of that. Basically more opinion-based stuff, more personal occasions and more rambling posts like this one. Teen angst, eat your heart out!
*breathes out* That felt good.
I'll be leaving for my long awaited Euro tour on Sunday night - two weeks of traveling bliss during the not too hot European summer with some of my best friends! I'm very excited. You can keep up with that on my Instagram or Twitter, which I fully intend on using to make all my Southern Hemisphere followers jealous of my bikini selfies while they blow on their hands to keep them warm. Ha! I love you guys for real. I'll be back. PS. Happy fourth of July to all the Americans! :)
